so I went to fanfest this year and on the way back i bought 1000 duty free cigarettes as you do when your a smoker and someone offers cheap tabs.
as most smokers will also tell you when you have a good supply sitting around the house you tend to smoke a hell of alot more then usual.As i was getting down to my last 200 a little voice inside my head kept saying to me "you really don't need these you know"
so i made a vow when i smoked the last of my duty frees i would give them up for good.
Last monday was my last pack I smoked the last one at 2.10 in the afternoon and havn't bought another pack since.
oh the cravings i keep saying to myself you WANT a cigarette you don't NEED a cigarette.
so far it's working first 4 days were really hard but it is getting alot better i still have the urge at certain times of day.I no longer want one as soon as i wake up in the morning meal times are ok i just go and do the dishes straight away to try and take my mind off it.
i'm finding i spend alot less time on the computer though as this was my trigger playing eve i would spark a smoke everytime i would do a new task within eve.
About to go into a fight? light a smoke.
About to make that first jump into low sec/0.0? light a smoke
basically anything that involved a little bit of adrenalin light a smoke.
i have made a list of things that i could be spending my money on instead of cigarettes
top of my list is a new car i have always dreamed of an audi s3 i love them to bits the styling the performance the desirablity of them.
but i've never been able to afford one in part to the fact i spend £40 a week on cigarettes.
thats £160 a month
£1920 a year!!
i've been smoking for 17years thats £32,000!!!
32 grand thats a brand new s3 let alone a second hand 7 year old model (which are the ones i hanker after so much)
so this is just a little bit i thought i would write to let everyone know and big up my epeen i've gone a week without cigarettes and i'm feeling pretty damn good about myself because of it!!
anyone else who is trying to give up the demon weed and would like to chat about it share stories about how you tackle the craving what you plan to do once you have beaten the weed altogether please feel free to drop me a line.
seriously thinking about getting onvolved with an nhs stop smoking group to try and better my chances even more of giving up for good.
with smoke free regards and a free breathing RAWR