Originally by: Nick Bete
Ah yes Pilot Jenneth, we get it; you're an uncaring, unfeeling, unrepentant homicidal sociopath who no longer considers yourself "human" (or at least that's what I've gotten from your various essays and postings).
Hello, Mr. Bete. It's good to see you.
You've got the gist of a lot of my work, but you miss the central point. The point is not to toot my own horn, or, as the case may be, advertise my own depravity. It's that I am not unique, or even unusual.
I am what we generally seem to be. I'm maybe just a little more introspective about it, and wish to inspire thought in others.
This acknowledgment then frees you from any responsibility for your murderous acts? You feel yourself no longer bound by any "human" morals, customs, or standards of civilized behavior? Is something as simple as noting with sadness the extinguishing of a human life when seeing a corpse floating in the void beyond you?
You don't expect a slave-dog to wear pants, do you?
That said, of course I can note a human corpse with sadness. A human can do the same with a dead bird.
That last comment will tend to suggest that I place the infomorph capsuleer "above" humans. This is not the case. We are simply different.
I think this is a sham argument....
... to let me claim moral validation for being a horrible person. Yes, I know. And yet, trying to be otherwise nearly drove me insane, so perhaps I'm just naturally evil, yes?
Of course, capsuleer-kind tends to resemble me a lot, so that would seem to mean that most of us are similarly twisted creatures. Does that mean that we are all naturally evil-- that somehow the capsule technology tends to work best for horrible people? Does it mean that the technology drives us mad? Or does it mean that our place in the scheme of things has changed, that we not only do
not, but can
not live as humans any longer?
What's the purpose of your quest for truth and understanding of the capsuleer "nature" then Captain Jenneth? Is it to change? To become less animistic and more human? Is it to provide flimsy justifications for your dark impulses? Or is it in the end no more than a case of mental "self-pleasuring"?
It's ultimately about understanding my place in things, Mr. Bete. Our place. It's a matter of understanding the universe, and our part in it.
The whole cannot be seen without the part, and vice versa.
You see, Mr. Bete, I don't exist. Neither do you. We are both illusions; our separateness from the Totality is a fiction conjured by our minds. Thus, the proper, "right" place for me is simply to be whatever it is I am, to serve my role. Unable to be a good human, I instead seek to be a good infomorph capsuleer. We have some sense of what that means, already, but the picture is by no means finished.
Unable to follow my old path, I instead seek the wisdom to establish a new one. If that path makes me a monster, as you accuse me of being, then so be it.
However, if that is so, I think you will find that uncomfortably few of us are not.